Random thoughts...again.

My head is spinning today with a lot of random thoughts. I think this is normal for most moms...or I'm trying to make myself feel better.

Sept 11th: Yeah, I know, its been a week but I'm a bad blogger friend and haven't blogged lately. I watched something that was just raw video on A&E. I believe it was called something like "Hotel 9-11". OH. MY. GOD. It brought that day back and then some. They showed a video where a guy was standing VERY close when the second plane hit. They showed video of the people jumping. They showed some of the firefighters walking to the WTC and realized that every one of them died that day. *tear* I couldn't help but just sit on the couch and cry. I can't imagine losing my husband or children or anyone like that. I DIDN'T lose anyone that day, but I still feel as a nation we lost a lot of our innocence that day. My heart still breaks for all those people.

Kids: The kids are good. Noah's getting his two year molars and screams like a banshee anytime I try to brush his teeth. He's also in the terrible twos. So far I think they've been fairly mild but the jury's still out on that one. I'm having a Early Intervention meeting tomorrow to have him evaluated for speech. I just don't think he's where he should be for his age. I may just be a crazy mom but I want him evaled either way. Eden's getting her bottom two teeth and has been for awhile now. I was hoping that they would pop through before our trip to Ohio but I'm thinking they're still a ways off. I really hope our trip isn't fully of whiny baby!

Trip: We're leaving Sept 28th for OHIO!! The first week we'll be visiting my parents and David's mom and all our friends. The second week David will be in Chicago and I'll be staying at my moms house just for the extra help. I can not wait to see everyone and get away for a little while. David's moms house is very cluttered so we opted to stay at a hotel for a few days and she's upset with us. We're staying for the most part with my mom and will maybe venture down to my dads if I think the kids will cooperate. I've come to the realization that everyone is going to have to just chill out and understand that we've got two VERY small children that get into everything and are already going to be out of their element. I'd rather not be moving around the two whole weeks we're there.

I've puttered out...maybe more later.

Thankful Thursday...

Its another Thankful Thursday and I've been slacking! I'm back today though...

38. I'm thankful for the cool spell we've had and not having to run the A/C much. This time last year we were in Houston and it was still REALLY warm. Our electric bill averaged about $300.00 a month down there. I'm thankful its been averaging around $180 here!

39. I'm thankful I got to spend time in the wound care center yesterday. I got to see some really bad wounds and it will help me better serve the people I see when I go out into the community. I'm thankful FOR the wound center for those people. Some of the before and after pictures are AMAZING!

40. I'm thankful for my BEAUTIFUL children. I know I've used this before but I'm thankful EVERY day for them. They're healthy and happy and so much fun.

41. I'm thankful for finding the church we found.

42. I'm thankful the church was able to find a building and that this sunday will be the last week we're meeting in the high school.

43. I'm thankful that David was able to switch BACK his trip to chicago so I could stay in Ohio with my family while he's gone. The extra help and company is going to be awesome. I can't wait to see all my friends and family while we're there for 2 WEEKS! :)

44. I'm thankful that I THINK I see the light at the end of the tunnel and I think we'll be getting caught up on bills within the next month or two.

45. I'm thankful that I've started back on WeightWatchers and I've gotten back into the grove of it. This time next year I will be at LEAST 50lbs lighter.

46. I'm thankful that my Uncle Tom will be in Ohio when I am so I can see him. He lives in California and I only get to see him every few years. The last time I saw him was at my uncles funeral in the beginning of 2008.

47. I'm thankful for the house we're renting. It's PLENTY of space and it has a playroom for the kids. They each have their own rooms and they're both pretty big. We've come a long way from where we lived in Northwood. We then lived in a 800 square foot house and when we had Noah it was pretty cramped. We're now living in 2,000 square feet. OVER DOUBLE! It's a bear to clean sometimes but I love that we have room!

Your turn!

The friend that got away...

Am I the only one that has dealt with this? Am I strange to be dwelling on it 3 years later?

It's not the boyfriend that got away....I'm completely cool with all of them because it's GOOD they got away (or I did, rather!). But this friend...

We met about 4 years ago. She was funny, outgoing, inclusive and VERY welcoming. She worked with David at the church and she was really my first solid christian friend in Toledo. She was a good influence and we had a blast. We met and started hanging out and just had that connection like we were friends since we were little. I loved her like a sister...seriously. She quickly became my best friend and I was loving that I had someone that I connected to so fully. She was an amazing christian and an amazing wife and she was a great example of a good christian wife. Up to the end we were hanging out several times a week and were kinda inseperable...then the "incident" happened. I'm not going into it because theres no reason to...but she apologized and it was decided that we have some time apart. We did and then a few months later she called and we decided that we would work on rebuilding the friendship again. I fully forgave her and was happy to have her back in my life. Then a couple weeks later she emailed me to tell me that she couldn't do it...she couldn't be a part of my life and we couldn't talk anymore. She was worried about how people would "percieve" our friendship. I was incredibly hurt but I couldn't beg her to be my friend...how lame would that be.

Still to this day it causes me a lot of hurt. Recently we "brushed" shoulders (figuratively) again and for some reason it just brought all that back to me and smacked me in the face. I don't know if I ever ment as much to her as she did to me. I don't know if she still thinks about me and wonders what's going on in my life. I don't know...I just don't think I ever really got closure. And I don't know if I'm crazy for feeling like this.

I guess as a woman it's different because we're very emotional about things. Back when it all happened David was sad for me but told me to "move on" but I just can't. It's kind of like that family member that has stepped out of your life a couple times and just keeps coming back. I'll always hold out hope that we'll gain back our friendship and start fresh.

I also feel so out of control with the whole situation. In the grand scheme of things I was the one that was "wronged" in the whole situation and I had nothing to do with what happened and I feel like I've been the one thats been punished.

I've made a lot of different friends since then. Most have "stuck" and I now have friends all over the U.S. Some I have lost touch with, some I've had "fallings out" with. None of those bother me today...but I still miss my "sister".

(Do I sound like a nut-job now? LOL)

Not me/my child monday...

This is a little shin-dig MckMama over at my charming kids started. Embarrassed that you ate all the chocolate in the house...in just a couple hours? Furious that your child found the markers and did an art project on your brand new rug, but don't want to admit it? Your in luck! Just play along with all of us and tell us what you or your children did NOT do this week!

Noah turned 2 this week! With daddy being gone all week busy with fall rush at the college, let me tell you, it was not all I had hoped his birthday to be.

Noah did NOT get 3 time outs on his birthday and did NOT set a record for time outs in a day. He also didn't get two of those time outs by hitting me in the face with a toy. My child is an angel!
We did NOT stop opening presents early because he was a whiney ball of mess. I did not take him straight to bed! I'm a better mom than that!

I did not then get FURIOUS with David, after I had put BOTH kids to bed by myself, when I came downstairs and found him watching TV. After asking him to help me clean up the kitchen, dinner, toys etc. and him replying, "I put the wrapping paper in the garbage" I did not almost literally blow STEAM out my ears and then proceed to have an argument with him in my head. I'm much of a more understanding and giving wife than that.

(This ones from a couple weeks ago, but TOO good to pass up!)
Noah did NOT pee on my living room floor...several times. Curious? Let me explain! Noah watches a VeggieTale every morning and every night. Sometimes its the only time I can get away to get some stuff done! So, he was watching his nightly VT and David sat down next to him on the floor. He then pointed out a couple of wet spots on the carpet (Let me remind you that in our 3 bedroom house we only have 2 carpeted rooms!). I remarked that they were probably from his sippy cup but then said that he didn't have his water out there and it was probably from his milk so we should wipe it up. Several minutes later after the VT was over, David picked him up to take him upstairs to change him into his pajamas. When he picked him up he said "The bottom of his shirt and his shorts are SOAKED!" I knew it hadn't been that long since I changed him so I knew it wasn't his diaper. I told him it must have been his sippy (again) and he took him upstairs. He started laughing hysterically and called me up there. I walked upstairs and into Noahs room and all I see is him laying on his changing table, with his diaper on, but pulled down under his...package? LOL. I started confusedly (that's a word right?) laughing. David said it was like that when he took off his shirt. The kid had PUSHED his diaper down to...FREE himself and then continued to watch his show and URINATE ALL OVER MY LIVING ROOM CARPET! Just goes to show he is NOT ready to potty train...he could lay in his own filth all day and not care! KIDS!! (I would have photographic evidence of this but David wouldn't let me take a picture...I need to get some blackmail photos for when he's a teenager!)

I LOVE both of my children and wouldn't give either of them up for ANYTHING. Therefore, I did not EXTREMELY enjoy Friday when I had to call off after waking Noah up to get ready for Daycare and found him with a rash all over his body (not the part I enjoyed...I'm gettin to it!). I sent Eden to daycare so I could handle him easier at the drs office. After having to take both of them on Tuesday (can you image a NOT so smallish woman trying to wrangle a 2 year old and a 6 month old into a drs office by herself...It was not a pretty picture, or fun!) we found out he had strep throat. He had been on the antibiotics for 3 full days and had strep symptoms for 4 full days so I really didn't know if it was from the strep or the antibiotics...I should have seeings how I'm a nurse but with my kids, I'm just a worried mom and all my nurse knowledge goes out the window. After confirming it wasn't a reaction and just a rash from the strep we went to walmart where he REALLY behaved himself. We had fun walking up and down the isles and I pointed things out and asked him if he could say them...which as any true toddler would...REFUSED. After walmart we came home and he AND I took a 2 hour nap. Then we went outside and played until daddy got home. I enjoyed only having 1 kid for a day. I remembered back to how easy it was. When we just had noah though, I keep thinking it was hard...then I had another one. Don't get me wrong, I love my precious girl, but it was nice to have a mommy Noah day and just get to enjoy having him. I'm sure in about 6-12 months it will be much easier with her...as long as we don't have another one! LOL

Well... that was a long winded version of Not me/my child Monday...

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Thankful Thursday...

So, I'm stealing...no BORROWING this idea from a friend of a friend. If I knew her or her blog I would credit her but I don't. The idea is you make a list of everything that you're thankful for from the last week and she is actually numbering them and trying to get to 1,000! So, here we go again...

31. I'm thankful I finally found the motivation to really get stuff done around the house.

32. I'm thankful I finally found a good balance of playing with the kids, getting things done and relaxing.

33. I'm thankful for Eden's laugh. She's been laughing a lot lately and its so cute. Sometimes she'll laugh but she's not smiling! LOL

34. I'm thankful for finally starting my job, and not quiting when they gave me a 1000 page policy and procedure book to read the first day.

35. I'm thankful for David's first day of fall rush going well. His store made A LOT of money. Unfortunately, they don't have the stats from last year because it was a different company. The better he does the bigger his bonus will be! :)

36. I'm thankful my kids have been on a more normal schedule getting up at 9 instead of 11! This time its seeming to stick.

37. I'm thankful that the kids have been doing o.k. at daycare. Eden's been doing great and Noah had a great first day, but a whiney second day. I pray that tomorrow will go better for him.

Your turn!

Wordless Wednesday...

M.I.A...

Sorry! I know I've been MIA lately. A lot of things are going on in The Bowman household. My husband is a school bookstore manager so August is a REALLY crazy month. Also, I just got a job as a home health nurse and started on Monday. With both of us working the kids had to start daycare. Let me tell you...that was a hard day...and still is hard. Friday we did a trial run. David only works until 12 on most fridays (except for "rush" which starts tomorrow and ends in the beginning of September) so I went to work with him, helped him drop them off and get them settled and then hung out in the computer lab and went to Old Navy before picking him back up and going to lunch, a movie and more shopping! Let me tell you, it was so hard dropping them off, but we also had a lot of fun just the two of us. I had lobster and steak and then we went to watch G-force. I really didn't want to watch a kids movie on our first kid-free day in over 6 months...but it was the only one in our time slot that wasn't full of sex. We really try to see clean movies and use christiananswers.net to preview the movies before we see them. It actually was pretty good and cute. Then we went to Walmart (I'm so boring now...walmart excites me) and shopped just for ourselves. I'm sure I'm like a lot of parents when I say, "I don't spend money on myself." I really don't. Every time I put something in the cart for me, it comes back out because I'd rather spend that on the kids. PLUS, we haven't had an income that pays all the bills since January. David and I were both working in January in Houston when he lost his job. I then had to switch from working 1-2 days a week to 3 12 hour shifts just to get by. We were getting by with his severance and my job, but I stopped working in the middle of february because a precious little girl was on her way and I was just miserable. Then his severance ran out at the end of february so we didn't have income for about 2 months. Then after working April and May we moved here to Virginia on Memorial day weekend. So, long story short (holy rabbit trail!!) I haven't felt comfortable spending any money on myself. David and I both got some stuff we really needed and got something for a friend that she really needed and still made it out of there fairly reasonably. SO...lots has been going on. My orientation day was last monday and my first day in the office was this past monday. I now work friday and saturday this week and then its just going to be 2 days a week (friday and saturday) from here on out. The kids will go to daycare on fridays, and daddy will watch them saturdays. We may switch it up a bit in September and work Mondays and Saturdays so David and I can have some time together on fridays. We'll see. Hopefully I won't fall off the face of the earth again...SORRY!

Thankful Thursday...

So, I'm stealing...no BORROWING this idea from a friend of a friend. If I knew her or her blog I would credit her but I don't. The idea is you make a list of everything that you're thankful for from the last week and she is actually numbering them and trying to get to 1,000! So, here we go again...

22. I'm thankful that little Stellan did NOT have to fly to Boston again to have another heart ablation and that they were able to adjust his meds and he is now HOME in NSR!

23. I'm thankful for my adorable children (I know, I know, a weekly theme but come ON!) I look at both of them in AMAZEMENT every day. Eden is seriously the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.

24. I'm thankful for getting to wake up every morning to my babies! Eden rolls over and just starts jabbering most of the time. I walk in and just say "Eeeedeeen" and she gets a HUGE smile on her face and starts contorting trying to find me. Noah, jumps up to his feet when he hears the door open and gets a cute little grin and throws down his blankets and pacifier (I know, I'm working on getting rid of it, but its just during nap and sleep!) and starts jumping up and down. THE. CUTEST. EVER.

25. I'm thankful for friends who are so solid in their faith. Mon, my friend from Toledo, is an amazing christian woman. Her and her family are going through a tough time right now with the stupid economy and she still is so positive and uplifting!

26. I'm thankful that I'll be getting a check on August 21st!!

27. I'm thankful we found a daycare for the kids and its nice and clean, and cheap! Their first day will be friday. Davids working from 8-12 and I'm going to just go with him to drop them off (the daycare is in wytheville, where he works, which is 30 min away from the house!) and then bum around until he's done. Then we're going to lunch and a movie. It will be our first time with no kids in 6-7 months!

28. I'm thankful I got a shower tonight. Still wondering when it will stop feeling like a luxury! I actually got to SHAVE too! *ooohhhooo*

29. I'm thankful for the amazing Dad that David is!

30. I'm thankful that I get to hear Noah talk every day. It is TOO cute. The way he says "BYYYEEE" and "ouside!" are PRICELESS!

Stellan...

I'm not doing a not me monday post this week. First of all, I didn't have internet all day due to a huge storm last night and our modem getting fried. Luckily it was comcast's modem and they replaced it. Secondly, I want all the attention (or the very little) that my blog gets to be directed towards little Stellan and his mom Jennifer. Stellan isn't doing well and my heart aches for Jennifer as a mom and a sister-in-Christ. I can not image how draining and gut wrenching it must be to watch your baby lay in the ICU struggling to live and not be able to help them. So please please please pray for little Stellan. He's so little and full of joy and I know his family isn't ready to let go, and neither am I for that matter. Pray Pray Pray!!

http://www.mycharmingkids.net for updates

Random thoughts...

So it was another lazy weekend at our house...as lazy as we can get with two under two. I just realized that I can only say that for another month. Yes, its true, my almost 2 year old will actually turn two on August 20th. It sounds surreal right now. Its been a long journey, but it seems like its gone really fast too. In those short two years we've moved three times, got pregnant by suprise with another one and enjoyed welcoming her to the world, and went through all those baby milestones. He's grown up so much and he really is a joy to have around (most of the time! :P).

I'm so blessed to have two beautiful, healthy children. Aside from both of them having reflux, they've been really healthy. If you look at my sidebar you'll see a button for little Stellan. MckMama over at mycharmingkids.net and Stellan and the whole family need your prayers right now. Stellan was found to have heart problems before birth and they were told that he wouldn't live. He's now an amazingly beautiful 8 month old but he's back in the hospital for the second time since his birth. The last hospitalization was several months long and they had to transfer him to boston. He had a heart operation but it doesn't seem to be working. I beg you to pray for this sweet sweet family. I don't personally know them, but I've followed her blog for some time now and my heart breaks as a mother for MckMama. So please, if you never do anything else for me...ever, please pray for them.

Children Call...I'll add more later if possible...